I watched you walk into my life filled with smiles and highly opinionated. I didn’t love you at first sight but your confidence was so contagious. I trusted your judgement the moment you walked into the room even though your questions weren’t directed at me. I trusted that you could take care of me as you finally looked at me.
I didn’t see beauty but I saw strength as you waited patiently for me to say something. You weren’t the picture in my head, you were the person in my heart that I had long forgotten. I didn’t remember you immediately. Oh no I didn’t.
Being the cautious me that I am I watched you closely, the expressions on your face, the gait of your walk, the balding spots on your head, your tiny eyes, your ever changing voice that had a laughter willing to breakthrough anytime. Your ever chattering mouth talking to me like we were old school mates. People looking would never tell I just met you. Dragging me out of my shell was a personality stronger than mine, willing me to express, willing me to be me.
Even as you chatter I watch you watch me. I watch you trying to resist my gentle calm that laughed at your every joke. I knew you were my friend once we got on that “okada” together.
I wasn’t lost in your eyes, I was found in your presence.
I didn’t think at first that you started and completed me. I thought that you understood where I was but didn’t know where I was going. you weren’t my prince charming, you were my knight in shining armour. This I realized when you held my hands as we crossed each bridge and and pulled me tightly through every crowd.
I deny through all of this that I loved all of your imperfections, that if I kissed you I would feel complete, that when I jokingly put my head on your shoulder I wanted you to hold me, that when I hear your voice shadows flee, that when you smiled at me my face mirrors your expression, that when you are hungry my tummy rumbles, that when you cry my heart breaks, that when you ask me to be yours my heart leap in fear cause I don’t know how to handle all this perfection in my imperfection.