It started gently,all of this
You walked right in,with so much ease
With simple words and light banter
Feeling like we’d known each other
Much longer. Maybe forever.
I knew your soul was beautiful.
It started slowly, and not by plan
You took hold just like a vine
And wrapped yourself around my heart.
You took root- an epiphyte.
We became something beautiful.
I became hooked. I couldn’t stop
Candy had turned into cocaine.
I needed you. I wanted you.
The thought of no you, bringing pain.
Your voice became Novocaine .
A destruction so beautiful.
It was self-harm, I hurt myself
So bad for me, and so perfect
My brain and heart were far apart
Blind to my self, I saw your heart
Cold and lonely,you psychopath
Your ugly was still beautiful.
I hated me for loving you
And yet,I still showed you my heart.
You laughed at me, you stabbed. You tore
I bled for you a little more
You consumed me, and I loved it
The pain was so damn beautiful.
The consummate puppeteer.
You found your way under my skin
Pushing me away, and drawing me in.
I’ve seen the light
You are a beast
So, how are you so beautiful?
Maybe someday I’ll have the strength
To throw my feelings in the air
I’ll turn my back on you and them
And pray they die of pure neglect
I’ll cut these strings and I’ll be free
To have a pain-free beautiful.