In the past days, I have been feeling weird.
How do I know? Well I have this feeling, its a feeling that I feel now that I know that I have never felt before and when I feel this feeling, I want to feel more and more of it, I dont want it to stop.
I’m writing to you now, because I want you to think this through before I explode. I’m aching now and I know you have a way of over analysing things and seeing all possible reasonings why I shouldnt feel this feeling.
Oh but Brain, the way I just pause when he walks into the room, its alarming even to me, because if I pause like that all the time, my master will die! Oh but brain, when he holds masters hand, I just become so erratic and crazy, even the nervous system has written a letter to me, because apparently my actions have them causing heaves of sweat and even trembling in masters knees but I cant help it! I’ve tried, I really have to be still and play cool when he is here but I just cant. I need your help!
You have such a way of bossing everyone around, perhaps you can speak to me as strictly as you speak to masters bladder when we are on long trips!
Oh brain, how I never want him to leave the room, and sometimes I hear his heart too, when master hugs him, I hear it and I swear it beats for me. Brain, I know you’ll roll your eyes when you read this, but its true! I know his heart beats for me.
Yesterday, when he kissed master on the lips, I thought, surely, master was going to die, I didnt know what happened to me, it was as though electricity coursed through me, I was hopping about and dancing in some crazy manner. It’s never happened to me before. I wanted him to do it again, even though I was terrified that master and I would perish. I wanted him to do it again, I still want him to. This is so retarded, I barely know him, beyond his heart beat and his electrifying voice and molten kisses, I dont know him, but this feeling I’m feeling makes me feel like that all I need to know!
Oh Brain, what am I to do? The worst is, after that electrifying kiss, and he walked away. I felt a new feeling, as I have never felt before, I felt as though I didnt want to work anymore, as if thumping against Sir RibCage was of no use, a waste of time!
Oh brain, please help me. I fear that if I never see him again or hear his heart beat for me again, I myself will slowly stop beating.
Brain, is this what you described in page 40 of the user’s manual?
Brain, am I in love?
Anxiously awaiting your response.