…..i sometimes wish i was still the little cute pie girl i was years back,then life was much more simple and easy.with all the love attention nd care showerd on you and all you know is having friends eating candy chocolates icecreams nd stuff like that.
Getting into adulthood is as hard as a rock because life gets complex by the day,things happen here and there,some you get to hear some you see and some even happen to you.
I boast of managing to be an adult but its all bull-shit,i dont understand most of the things i see or do.,certain things get me wondering out of this world just by thinking of them.
This life is much more than it seems to anyone.i used to believe that certain things only happen to certain people and certain things happen for a reason but no !!! things dont happen that way,its like everybody does what suits them at a particular time without caring about other peoples feelings.its so horrible….but i must find a way somehow to fit in.some awkward things are already normal to some people claiming theyve been in the system for a long time,the thing is there is there is a new wonder as each day passes by.
I feel no 1 understands me or see things the way i do and its a bit scary cos sometimes it makes me feel like a loner.
Sometimes You cant talk to people without moulding or editing your words so they dont get hurt,i cant open up the way i want to because ill regret ever talkin but it wouldnt change what i think or feel on the inside..its devastating.
Sometimes i wish i never grew up to know somethings that i know exist now,honestly.i wish i could unlearn certain things,or erase some things i know but thats impossicant.just av 2 find a way to adapt and keep going.
This life ….(that’s just the way it is)