He says he wants me
And I’m his to take
I have been since the first time I pressed my lips to his – Tessa (After)
At this junction
I know what we are
You are the flame
And I’m the moth
A relationship already fated for disaster
We are a train wreck waiting to happen
You hurt me and I leave
Just a little smile
Just a few nice words from you
And I’m back
It’s like I’m willing to suffer the consequences for a sweet moment with you
Those moments never last
And once again, I’m a victim of your emotional wreckage
For one moment of pleasure
There are thousand moments of shame, tears, humiliation
It just doesn’t add up
But everytime, I’m willing to give us a try
Even though you’re not deserving
I can’t even be done with us
You won’t let me
Once I start to heal from the wounds you inflict on me
Once I’m ready to move on
You show up
And I can’t seem to move
I’m stuck between wanting you and wanting what’s best for me
What’s best for my sanity
Knowing me
The answer is obvious
You are my weakness
My battered heart already knows the drill when it comes to you
Even when you reject it over and over again
You are lord over my body
Even though my brain tells me to keep the little dignity I have left
You are pain
And I’m a masochist
Driving at full speed
Towards the train wreck that is you
i literally clapped after reading this
beautiful!!!!