“Away from me you drifted gradually; you gave me no quick notice”.
It destroyed the core of me. I lost my focus”.
“Your absence, neglect and indifference,
All driving me into insane solitude”
“I hated it all, I hated existence and also your attitude”
“Your thoughts wrong; Your pride, your downfall
“Short you were, yet I saw you appearing tall.”
“I made you look more and that made you see less”
“To you I concealed my thoughts, true I must confess”
“I have no doubt. its cos of him?”
“Both of you, inseparable; you were like a team”.
“You placed a bulwark when I came close”.
“How much I hate now and then, only God knows”.
“Why did you allow your thoughts to stray”
‘He’, gave me my needles each and everyday”
“You became weak and jealous, your ego held sway.?”
Josh , I never stopped loving, each and every single day”
“My plan was not to leave you”.
“But you made it clear when I wrote you”.
“My letter explained it all”.
“I made it lucid, it was now your call”.
‘Was it my call to make, when you didn’t pick my phone calls, then?”
“Was it my call to make, when you responded not to my kiss then?”
“Was it my call to make when you left and thought of me less?”
“Was it my call to make, when you stopped seeing me? No or Yes!”
“Yes it was, cos I laid out all the cards on the table”.
“Believing that our love for each other will make it able”.
“For me to fight the impending battle and also be stable”.
“You spelled it out loud in your letter ;I was no longer desirable”.
“Don’t blame it on me. Why did you change?”
“And what battle do you want to fight and challenge?”
“Your words are becoming incomprehensible”.
“Didn’t you read the letter?It was legible”.
“Its all written there; its so sensible”.
“Consume it all and believe you me when I say its edible”.
“No! I didn’t read it.
“Cos there was no need for it”.
“Unread, the letter was, cos, I left it”.
“You were clear, your actions said it”.
“Your ego and obstination stronger than an African voodoo”.
“I am sad that I still can’t get to you”.
“I needed time to come in terms with it”.
“At that time, my emotions wasn’t fit”.
“The virus was now my companion”.
“I love you and I didn’t want to give you a different opinion”.
“What are you saying?”
“What virus are you breeding?”
“Have you forgotten my incessant cough?”
“Or the time that my temperature was off”.
“Have you forgotten when I passed out and you thought that it was a bluff?”
“Or when the doctor said ” Time was going to be so rough”.
“Nancy I am still lost and not sure about what you saying”.
“Are you saying there was no one else?”
“No! There was someone else and you allowed ‘It’, to separate us”.
“Its all in the letter. Read it and it will all be revealed to you”.
“Though it is already too late, cos I will soon depart this world for my grave”
“Nancy I never knew. I am truly sorry for being gullible”.
I know the pain inside is so palpable.
“My jealousy, ego and pride, I won’t hold them culpable”.
“I allowed it all to make me lose sight of what I had, they lead me astray”.
“The letter I read not, how I curse that day”.
I am sorry that he wasn’t there for you and for those living with HIV/AIDS, just know that you are not alone. Keep on living.