I was rereading the emails we used to send each other
Months ago it seems
In another life
Little bottles in the waves
Each one tugging at my heart
I miss you so much
I miss your words, the sound of your voice
I miss your words so much
Were we ever friends?
Time usually softens the pain
So why is it that
I can’t seem to be able to escape thinking about you?
You come back into my dreams
Night after night
I wish I could just speak with you about anything
Like we used to
I miss those fleeting moments
Like beads stringing a never ending necklace
I miss your presence
I miss you
Were we ever close?
Do you miss me?
I will never know
If I could weave all the moments we were together
I would wrap myself in them indefinitely
I can’t cry
My pain is far beyond any place I can reach
There is happiness in my life though
And I am moving on
But something inside me is always longing for you
For that ephemeral certitude that we belong together
And a part of me echoes a part of you
How many more years will it take me to forget you?
There are no more bottles in the waves
Silence is deafening and my heart is bleeding
Still I will love you