I watched BG and wondered if she was actually going to slap me or hit me or curse me in the name of every god she knew for daring to make her boyfriend dump her for no reason at all. Actually, at that moment, I had begun to regret confessing to her what I had done.
“Are you serious?” she asked, her countenance showing surprise and pain. I assumed she had probably thought Sam had broken up with her for some other reason other than the fact that his stupid friend had advised him to do it.
I managed to look into her eyes. “Yes” I said.
The surprised look on her face was unwavering. “Why? What did I do? Why did you ask him to break up with me?” she asked, obviously more irritated by her realization of my betrayal. I wondered if this was the same girl that had told me minutes ago that she actually wanted to break up with Sam as well and that she wasn’t at all bothered by his decision to break up with her. She did not seem like the same person. The girl I saw now was not the trying-to-be-strong girl I had seen minutes before. This was an angry and broken girl who was obviously shocked that a guy she least expected had been instrumental to her painful experience. I decided to bail myself out quickly before things got out of hand.
“I’m sorry if you feel offended,” I said “but I felt Sam was not treating you right and I told him to either start treating you better or break up with you.”
“Was it any of your business?” she lashed out and hit me squarely across the jaw. I could taste blood in my mouth instantly and I wondered how many teeth had broken ………………….. TAKE THAT BACK. LOL. She didn’t do anything like that. Instead, she was silent for a few seconds as she pondered on her next line of words. I decided to seize the advantage of silence to punctuate my rationalization.
“I believe if a guy doesn’t care about a girl, he should at least have the decency to let her know it and let her find someone else. Treating her bad would not only make him look bad. It would also kill the girl’s emotions and opinion about guys.”
I was pretty sure I was making sense to her. I paused and waited for her to respond.
“I don’t know what to say” she said after a long sigh. “Sam is just a bastard.”
“Hey, you don’t have to say that” I said quickly in defense of my friend. “It’s not a crime not to love someone. That’s why we all have choices. He probably liked you in the past but overtime, feelings could fade and the best way to address such issues is by going separate ways. I would have done the same thing if I were in Sam’s shoes.”
“You mean you would have treated your girl like shit as well?” she queried.
“No, no, not that” I defended. “I mean I would have broken up with her if I felt we weren’t connecting anymore.”
“You wouldn’t even care if she still loves you?” she probed further.
“Of course I will, and that’s why I would try my best to treat her the best way I can and if that still doesn’t work, I’ll politely let her know how I feel and why we need to part.”
She nodded her head in agreement. “You’re right, you know.”
I nodded too. “I know.”
We spoke about a lot of things and by the time we got to our bus terminal, we were not done. She pleaded with me to walk with her a little further after we alighted and I agreed. In fact, I was beginning to enjoy the discussion so much that I would have been unhappy if she hadn’t suggested that. We chilled at a bar nearby and I listened to her as she explained how she had met Sam and how they had began as early teenage friends. As I listened, it dawned on me that what they had all the while was more of the ‘puppy love’ thing and not a relationship in the real sense of it. Sam had obviously realized this faster, especially after getting into University and decided to bail out hence his unseemly actions towards her which had finally culminated in his breaking up with her, even though it was further hastened by my prodding. On the other hand, BG, the naïve girl that she was had not realized this and continued to live in the fantasy that she had someone she was in love with, in the person of Sam. I also had cause to find out that Sam had done a lot of exaggeration or at least, BG never corroborated the impression Sam had given us about his relationship with her. I began to wonder if this girl sitting in front of me was pretending and just playing an act but it hardly seemed so. Sam had affirmed that they had done so many nasty things together but as we spoke, she hardly seemed the type. I decided to be a little jumpy and I asked her a funny question.
“Hope you wouldn’t be pissed if I ask you this question?” I said.
She looked at me and smiled knowingly. “I know what you want to ask me”
I was a little surprised as I wondered what on earth she thought I had in mind. “You do?”
“Yes” she said, the smile still playing on her lips. “Am I virgin?”
I almost spilled my drink. That had been exactly what I had in mind. “Wao! That’s smart” I said, feeling a little shy in front of this girl. “So, are you?” I finally asked.
“Yes. Sam and I only kissed a few times and that’s it.”
It sounded unbelievable and I felt tempted to find out if indeed she was telling the truth. I had not seen many eighteen year old female virgins and I really doubted if she was telling the truth but I decided not to probe further. By the time we parted ways that night; I had begun to see BG in a new light. I could still see the naïve girl I could not imagine myself going out with but still, there was something about her that began to attract me to her. I knew it was a most foolish thing to do, especially since I had practically influenced my friend in his decision to break up with her and I decided I would not act that foolish. The battle however was no longer in my hands. There were two separate parts of me with separate minds of their own – Geebaba and Geebizzles – in a boxing ring and while Geebaba preferred to do the ‘seemingly sensible’ thing and leave the naïve little thing, Geebizzles wanted a little more chance to ‘know’ this naïve little thing. I decided to allow the two boxers battle it out while I watched from the stands or preferably coordinate the fight as an umpire.
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