First Mansion on the Street of Gold,
Off Somewhere in Outer Space,
How are you Sir? Hope all is well? It has been six months I wrote to you last, and I must say it is such a pleasure to write to you again after such a long time. If you remember my last letter, I wrote about my desire to discover the gifts you have put in me. I am happy to tell you I have found one of these gifts, singing, and I have decided to serve you with this gift by joining the church choir. I am really enjoying my role as a chorister, and Pastor Francis said I have the potential to become the lead singer soon. I hope he is right; I’m looking forward to the day I’ll actually lead the choir to sing about the beauty of heaven and salvation. I am very thankful for all your letters encouraging me to discover my gifts, and I am sorry I have not written a thank you letter since. However, Sir, I am writing this letter because I am facing a new problem, a problem I think may lead me to hell-fire.
I turned fourteen six months ago, and as I was taught in my biology class, I’m experiencing some interesting physical changes. First, my moustache is sprouting; even teachers at school are pestering me about shaving it. Also, Papa, Mama, and my relatives are saying my voice has deepened; when I talk on the phone, they mistake me for an adult. Pastor Francis told me all these changes show I am entering a new phase in life, he told me that it is you who caused these changes to happen and I should be grateful to you. Sir, I am really grateful for all these changes , but there is one change that is happening in me I don’t like , one change I am scared of ,one change I think is from Satan.
Of recent, I have being liking girls oddly, I really mean oddly. I am not talking about the way I used to like my neighbor Amaka because of her pretty face , or the way I used to like my friend Funmi because she could sing very well , or the way I liked Adaeze because she always helped me with my assignments. This new kind of “like” is different.
There is a sixteen-year old girl singing with me in the choir, her name is Ndidi. Like me, she is also a new member. Both of us don’t talk much, but I feel something for this girl I have never felt in my life. Not only do I like the fact that she is fair-skinned, with an oval-shaped face which easily makes her the prettiest girl in the choir, and the fact that she has a very powerful voice, there are other things I see myself liking beyond my control. God, my admiration for this girl is surreal; I am so fascinated by the way her skirt fits so tightly on her waist to reveal her very shapely lower figure, and the way her blouse allow the curves of her breasts to show. One day, we choristers had a picnic at the beach, because we wanted to swim, we all wore our swimming outfit. Ndidi wore a tank-suit, it made me want to look at her even more. During this picnic, she came to me and asked me if she looked beautiful in her tank-suit, I should have kept quiet, but I sinned, I said yes.
God, what is happening to me? Is Ndidi a witch or have I become demon possessed? I discussed this issue with my senior brother, Jude, and he just said all these feelings are normal, a part of puberty. But I find it very hard to believe Jude because he is not a strong Christian like me. God, I know all these feelings are sinful because Pastor Francis always says Christians should be holy, and I know these feelings are unholy. God I hate puberty , I don’t want to go to hell because of puberty , please take away this demonic puberty from me , I don’t want to go to hell. Or God kill Ndidi and save me from going to hell. I know her beauty is from Satan. I really hate her, I am sure she has bewitched me , knowing fully well I am going to be a great choir leader as Pastor Francis prophesied. I avoid her like her plague, and this is very obvious to her and other choir members.
God, why should I, a Christian, a choir member, feel this way? Pastor Francis always said that when one becomes a Christian, you take away all our sins and make us holy. But why haven’t you taken these unholy puberty feelings from me? Pastor Francis also said that you made everything in this world, so did you also make these strange feelings too? If you did make these feelings God, why would you do such a wicked thing? Why would you give me these evil puberty feelings and expect me to go to heaven?
Please God this is my complaint, I am confused. Please remove these feelings from me by your power and kill my enemy Ndidi that I may fulfill my purpose of being a Christian singer in this life, and go to heaven when I die. Please Sir, reply quickly.
No 19b Adebola Street,
Opposite Tope Falomo Gardens,
Finally, I have heard from you after six months — which seemed like a thousand years to me. I am very well thank you. I’ve been very busy, dealing with the usual earth problems, you human beings give me a lot of work, but I’m always happy to solve them. From your letter, I see you have found your place as a chorister. I am glad you did not stop searching for your gifts. Since you have found your gift of singing, practice regularly and be loyal to your choir; you’ll be a top man before you know it.
Now, I see the real reason for your taking so long to write to me, Ndidi and those “demonic feelings”, well let me address the issue. In your letter, you said you were on a quest to find your gifts, and you have already found one, singing. Emeka , I can confidently tell you that you’ve found another one , your sexuality. Perhaps you should humbly listen to your elder brother, Jude, though he may not be a “strong Christian” as you say, he is older than you with a lot of life experience. As he said, your feelings are normal, a part of growth, you’re not demon-possessed. Just as you decided to use your gift of singing to serve me, do the same with your sexuality.
I would have written more information about this your “new gift”, but if I tell you everything, it may take you another six months to write to me again. So I have not written much in this letter, I want to keep you curious. Ask me more questions concerning this issue, so that we can keep in touch more frequently.