You creep up on me like a shadow
Slouching sideways, color as dark as a starless night;
You are my worst nightmare come to life
A creature in thought Fleshed out
with every choice I made,
My own Frankenstein drooling
Maliciously over my drawn out dreams;
I made you and yet you disobey me
I command you and yet you enslave me,
Creator bowing to created
Created lording over creator.
Dread trails me daily
Jabbing at me with gleeful harm,
Fear walks confidently by my side
Chortling with delight at my trembling steps:
Your minions dodge my every footstep
They do your bidding
as well as you do not do mine.
I’d say this was sudden but that would be a lie;
In my mind you were fully formed
Fully formed and very much alive.
I spoke you into being
From dawn till dusk
Till you were a faint apparition
before my unbelieving eyes.
Still in defiance I dared you to be,
With decisions that gave you the strength
To reach out and touch me;
T’was that touch slimy and cold
That gave me a start and made you so bold.
I can hardly send you back now can I?
When fear holds my tongue and dread imprisons my heart.
My despair created you
But my hope will kill you;
If I could but speak