Swansong (1)

Swansong (1)

In Loving Memory of Ifeanyi Azuka ‘St. Fishie’ Churchill Adindu….


Yesterday I lost my closest friend,

Yesterday I wanted time to end,

I wonder if my heart will ever mend,

I just let you slip away…

-Lost Prophets=4. a.m. Forever


“Do you hear that? Do you hear that, son?”

“What’s that daddy?”

“That’s the wind, son. That’s the wind of change…”



If I don’t say this now,

I will surely break…

-The Fray=Look After You




4 weeks ago, if you’d told me that the dead could speak ( not ghosts; there’ve been stories of ghosts speaking to people, though not to me. I haven’t seen one. Yet. I must be ghost-repellent-suits me just fine. No, I’m talking about cadavers!), I would have looked at you like you needed to get your head checked. Even with all that was happening at the time, broach the subject and I would personally have hauled your ass to see a shrink. Or a pastor. Or whoever could and would have helped.

Dead people, talk?

Yeah, right.


Since the past week, my take on life and everything concerning it has changed. It wasn’t actually a gradual process, you know, like childbirth…


It was the most abrupt change that could ever happen to anyone, including you, dear Reader. Yes you. You think you know everything there is to know about this world? Well, here is a newsflash for you: You haven’t even sucked the tip off that particular iceberg.

Something happened. Something so incredible that you won’t be able to get your head around it. I barely can, AND IT HAPPENED TO ME! It was an…what’s the word…other-worldly experience. And it wasn’t pleasing either. Actually, it was the most painful thing that’s ever happened to me in my entire life (short as that has been).

I gained…

I lost…

And I lost more than I gained.

Writing this has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do, no fun reliving the events of the past weeks. But I had to do this, because I’ve got the feeling that forgetting will have dire consequences…

Just be thankful that it didn’t happen to you.

Oh, sorry. My manners.

My name is John.





Do we create a modern myth,

Do we imagine half of it,

What happened in a thought from now,

Save yourself, save yourself,

A secret is out,

A secret is out…

-Thirty Seconds to Mars=A Modern Myth.


I am not alone,

I live with the memories,

Regret is my home,

This is my true freedom…

-Alterbridge=Shed My Skin





The three musketeers. That’s what they called us. Only, we didn’t have swords (we weren’t in an Edwardian age) neither did we have horses. No, what we had was far more greater than that.

We had friendship, and in the end, it was all that mattered.

George, Daniel and I.

The three musketeers.

We didn’t invite the name or call ourselves the name, but somehow it emerged from our course-mates and stuck like super-glue. It wasn’t a bad moniker though; I’ve seen people being called worse. We didn’t mind. Actually, we kind of liked it. Whenever we were alone gisting, we would envision ourselves doing great things, becoming great people, you know. Forming a formidable team, no matter the stage. Music, academics, business…

Sand castles, some would say.

Hey, not a crime to be ambitious, is it?

We were final-year students in the University, three accountants-to-be. We were also room-mates, or should I say hall-mates? Yeah, our room was actually a small hall, which we shared with roughly sixty or so other guys. And no, it wasn’t over-crowded, not that we noticed anyway, but on a really sunny day, you would wish you had your own personal and portable air-conditioning unit.

But the room had its upside. It was filled with the most wonderful characters; a wonderful, hilarious, God-chosen cocktail of personalities. ‘NITE OF A THOUSAND LAUGHS’ , that popular Nigerian comedy show, had nothing on us. Yeah, you read that right. Every waking moment was fun, so much so that other guys from other rooms would come to spend time with us and get belly-aches from laughing so much.


Sorry, but back to us.

George, Daniel and I had appropriated a corner of the hall, the left-most corner from the front door. Cozy. Not the Hilton, but okay.

George, the oldest of us, was a tall, handsome guy, not so fair, not so dark. None of us were, actually. A little over six feet, he was slim and wiry of build. Not a body-builder or an exercise buff. He was just one of those rare people that God blessed with minimum body fat. He was also our unofficially designated cook; he could whip up some tasty dishes. And he was our drummer.

Oh yeah, did I ever mention that we were starting a band?

Daniel. Daniel was taller than me with about half-an-inch or so ( don’t know if that matters but hey, half-an-inch is half-an-inch). Not bad-looking, he was also slim, but his was not from body-building, neither was it the rarity of nature.

Daniel suffered from Sickle Cell Disease.

He wasn’t always sick-the crisis associated with sicklers didn’t always disturb him.


He couldn’t be troubled to do anything, except he really had to do them on his own, like taking a bath, doing his laundry, um…okay, ran out of stuff there.

However, we didn’t mind.

What are friends for, if not for inconveniences?

Besides, Daniel couldn’t cook even if his life depended on it. Even I cooked better than him, and that’s saying a lot.

But Daniel was a great guy. There’s a reason we stayed close friends right from the first day we met. Yeah. Daniel. He was cool…


He was also our lyricist. Super cool, huh? Talk about our own black Eminem.

As for me, well… Okay. Here’s the deal. I don’t want to cloud your judgement about me alright? I don’t want to be tempted to tell you that I am a cute guy (I am though; you should see me) who’s got long, golden hair (NOT!), blue eyes (mine are black), and I walk like a lion  well, I’ve got my own swagger, if you know what I mean). No I’m no Prince Charming (I can be when I need to) from a Mills and Boon story. Actually, my life can be summed up in a couple of words.

Books. Lots of them.

Music. Play me a good tune and I’ll dance, or sing along if I can’t dance.


Love for, and of my God.

Love for, and of my family.

Love for, and of my girlfriend.

Love for, and of my friends.

Love for life. Life probably wants to screw me six ways to Sunday. But I survived long enough to write this story. Some people were not so lucky.

Right now, I don’t know much anymore. Not after what happened. But I know this; my life will never be the same again. The course of my life has been irreparably altered, and most of the time I feel like a rudder-less boat adrift a stormy sea with no land sight; translation-I feel like crap, like I don’t know where I am going to anymore. But I hope to change things real soon, just take my destiny and shape it any way I want.

Enough about me. I came here to tell you a story, and tell it I shall.

I hope I get this right.



This is for the ones,

Who believe that lives won’t change…

-Amber Pacific=If I Fall



Tap-tap-tap-tap-tap. I opened my eyes, removed my head-phones. I could still hear the music coming from them, like people screaming from a distant land. I reduced the volume. “Wetin?” I asked George in Pidgin English, the popular language of us Nigerians (English Language is such a bore; imagine the size of the dictionary!). He’d been tapping me.

“Guy, one day you go jus’ deaf. Just like that”, he warned, snapping his fingers.

“I’ve heard that before. What’s up?”


“You didn’t see her?”

“How?” George asked, perplexed, raising his shoulders, opening his hands questioningly. “She pulled a disappearing act on me.” His brows knotted together, and for a moment he looked like a six-year-old student complaining to his teacher about the complexity of a math question. “I don’t even-” He was interrupted by his phone. He checked the screen and then looked at me, face unreadable. “Na she.”

I felt like laughing. I watched him as he answered, then terminate the call. “She had a lecture,” he explained. “She couldn’t come.”

“Thought as much,” I said. “She should have called you since.”

“Said she was in a hurry.”

“This your girl wan’ put you for high jump oh.”

“No mind her. Man, I am hungry. Food dey?”

I looked at him with mock incredulity. “You cook food keep?” I asked him. “Or do I look like a fast-food joint to you?”

George laughed. “Guy you dey ‘f’ up oh.”

“Guy, shun. Let’s go to the café .” I got up, tossed my CD player into my bag, tossed this into my locker, locked up, got dressed. Took some money, my phone, sunglasses, and got ready to follow George.

I heard a low whisper. “Soon you’ll understand.”

“Huh?” George countered, turning to look at me.

“Soon I’ll understand what?”

George’s expression turned blank, then quizzical. His eyebrows went up. “What are you yapping about?”

“Didn’t you just say something just now?”

“Yeah, I asked you what you were yapping about.”

George can be a clown sometimes. Guess he just pulled one on me.

I shrugged. “Where’s Daniel?”

“With his chick” George answered.

“The one who’s not his chick, or another one I don’t know about?”

“The one who’s not his chick.”


We walked to the cafeteria and joined the line of people ordering food. Carried ours-two plates of steaming-hot jollof rice with fish(we preferred fish ’cos the meat they served was as big a Maggi cube. Or should I say as small as…). George went to get us drinks and water. He returned and we began to eat, talking around mouthfuls of hot rice (when you’re hungry, you could care less about a scalded tongue. Besides our tongues were now immune to the heat. Sort of.), gisting.

A shadow fell across our table and we looked up.


“Thieves,” he said, sitting down. “You guys didn’t call me to tell me you were coming here. Afraid you’ll pay for my meal?”

“Next thing now,” I replied, “you’ll expect us to call you when we want to shit.”

“How’s your girl?” George asked.

“She’s fine. And I told you this before, she’s not my girl.”

“Right,” we both said, nodding and smiling.

“What?” Dan asked, taking a spoonful of rice from my plate.

“Wetin dey happen for inside school?” I asked.

“Nothing much. Have you guys gotten your project topics approved?”

“Uh huh?”

“I just got mine approved,” he said, sipping George’s Coke.

“Guy!?” George exclaimed, snatching the drink.

“What? John didn’t complain.”

“That’s rice!”

“Yeah. And this is Coke!”

“Go and buy yours,” George said, putting the drink back on the table. “Don’t drink this again.”

“No problem.”

Dan drank it anyway.

We finished eating (Daniel didn’t buy anything, said he wasn’t really hungry, so why did he eat half of my food?) and just as we were getting up,

“It’s coming.”

George was the closest to me, so it was only logical that he be the one to play this prank on me. Again.

“What’s coming?” I asked George. Daniel just looked at me steadily, his gaze suddenly unreadable. But right now, I had eyes only for George; he would not play this prank on me and go free.


“I said what’s coming?”

George cocked his head, looked at me, touched my forehead, as though looking for a fever. Sighed and shook his head. “Oh, no wonder. Must be the heat from the rice. It’s messing with your head. And I thought I warned you about eating hot food. I do hope you are not falling seriously ill.” Turning to Dan he said, “This guy has been hearing voices all day. Must be that loud rock music he plays every time.”

Daniel laughed weakly, but his eyes looked strained, like he didn’t believe his laughter.

As we left the café, Daniel sidled alongside me and whispered in my ear.

“I hear them too.”




41 thoughts on “Swansong (1)” by Raymond (@raymond)

  1. Spooky!!! Another unique writing style, poetry and prose…what’s this one called Ray?

    1. @efearue, I don’t know oh! It’s just how I write…Thanks!!!

  2. Raymond, if you don’t win the booker in this life, I will spank you before the end of our lives… You are indeed a serious writer…

    1. Me, win Booker? Wow, and I thought it was only Bookshelf I was going to win…THANKS A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    2. Eh. Una don start to dey talk ‘spanking’ for here. Eh.

      Haven’t you watched Boondocks?! It’s always expedient to add ‘no homo’ to such statements!

      No homo.

  3. I hear them too!

    1. @4ran6, are U sure? Cos if U hear them, U just might go mad like me…

      1. Dat’s a little price to pay… I paid many years ago; being possessed lives u more and less at d same time.

        1. Well, @4ran6, that’s true. I know personally that my sanity and normalcy has gone the way of the blue suede shoe. But I love it!!!

          1. Na so. My girl thinks I see her even wen I’m many kilometers away. I just feel things even wen I’m far away. I don b wizard abi?

            1. All of us na wizard we be, in our own idiosyncratic ways, hehehehe….

              1. was kinda worried sha… i no fear again. was beginning to think i was possessed

                1. Hahahahaha!!! No worry, It’s one of the perks of being creatively crazy!!!

                  1. I can’t even manage trust anymore! That voice we hear neva seem to let me down… So, I listen to it 1st b4 any other person. I see thru d eyes of ppl to der mind, then soul. Dnt knw y i always easily connect with ppl in pains… Am I goin crazy @Raymond? I didn’t write all d poems I’ve written, that voice did, it’s dat possessive.

                    1. Hehehehe…I know the feeling. For me it’s quite different, yet still the same. I myself, am an enigma unto myself. Nobody understands me, cos I don’t understand myself sometimes either. Maybe a few ppl do, but that’s about it. But I love the Mysterious depths within me…As for my trust, well, ppl have to earn it too. And I feel pain acutely too, sometimes for no just cause, which is why I seem to write about it so well…Although I’ve had my share of pain in the past…

                    2. I think say una go continue till they begin to write una words…a letter at a time…

                    3. admin no even see space to write REPLY again. una don kolo abi?

  4. well i won’t say much @aymond, you know why…if anyone thinks this is spooky…wait till the next part…we are all hearing one voice or the other

    1. Thanks Xikay….As for a next part, I’m not so sure….I just wanted to give something like a Teaser Trailer, hehehe…Maybe everyone can read the full story in my collection which is coming out in a while….Meanwhile, I’ve uploaded a new story. My very first, pure Ghost Story….
      Thanks once again.

      1. ha ha h aha he he eh ehe

  5. You know the drill Raymond; but you just might have won yourself the ‘bookshelf’ you so desired. Waiting to read the entire piece bro, all the best.

    1. Thanks @Scopeman60.

  6. I really cannot wait to read your first published piece, you write so differently and I like that!

    1. Thanks Myne!!!!!!!

  7. Raymond, you are beginning to scare me, eziokwum! Snakes, ghosts, cadavers, and now, voices?! Hmm, take am easy Stephen King, biko….But your style’s so, so superb. Perfect descriptions and to, to tight! Wow!

    1. My Triangular Lover, Thank U oh!!!!! Hehehehe….Na so e dey do me my sister…

      1. i dont understand this triangle thing

        1. Na she oh. @Xikay, if U remember, her early stories always had to do with Love Triangles…

          1. issokay i haf gerrit now

  8. This a beautifully written story – great pacing and turn of phrases. Well done man!!!

  9. Did I miss something that you guys didn’t?

    Didn’t quite get the story well. But have recently learnt that any work of art that confuses me in a creative way is a good stuff.

    Can’t really say more.

    1. @jaywriter, take some pure palmy with bush meat and read it all over again oga runaway writer

      where have you been?

  10. @xikay – Been starting a new life. Meeting muses, super sweet muses. And do things me rather inbox you.

    Then had issues with my new BB, surfing internet and all. Trying hard now to check all the stuff me missed. Still looking out for new muses as well.

    1. @jaywriter, no worry bro. Maybe I’ll write it like a script, yes? Hehehe. Thanks for dropping by all the same.

    2. @jaywriter easy does it sha..and yeah, we missed you here

      1. Yeah @jaywriter, we missed U. Even U, @Xikay. Where have U been?

    3. Hope the new life has been alright…

      1. do you think i can be absent from my country NS?

  11. This is just so abstract. So left wing.

    So…unusual. So…creative.

    So nice.

    1. Thanks Boss…

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