Love still lives here…

Love still lives here…

I sit curled up on the love seat, tears flowing.  Staring at the far end of the room, I ignore the shadows cast on the wall by movements outside my window. My mind is in turmoil. I look around the house; five years and I hoped I’d still be counting but I’m not sure now.

I caress my wedding band, turning it around on my finger. I remove it and hook it to my necklace, like a pendant, close to my heart.

What will it take to make it work?

I remember when it all started; I just knew this was what I wanted. Barely out of the university, I was so eager to marry Steve. I believed he was everything I wanted. Mum thought it was too soon. We had only been dating for six months.

“Hold on for one year and you’ll be blessed many times over.” she had said.

Should I have waited? Would it have helped? Would things be different now if we had wedded after Christmas like we originally planned?

The questions swim in my head.

I switch on the television. Too much thinking is making me sick. I flip through the channels; nothing good on a Wednesday evening.

Maybe it’s because I haven’t had a child, I muse.  Steve loves children; I see it when we have Derin’s kids over. But that’s not my fault. The doctors say we’re both okay.

The tears keep flowing fast; I blow my nose hard, feeling a slight headache in my temple. I rise from the seat to turn off the lights in the room. My eyes catch something as I sit back down. I see a flicker of light from the table where I have my keepsakes. I move towards the object, bending down to pick it up.

Its a little velvet bag with a shiny logo. I open the bag and let out a soft sigh. Relief washes over me like a wave. No longer able to stand, I drop on the floor, crossing my legs.
Inside the bag are little red beads, hundreds of them.
My mother gave it to Steve and I on our wedding day, with a little illustration. She had us remove a bead and return it.

“Shake it together and remove the same bead from the lot.” she said.

We looked at each other and burst into laughter.

“That’s impossible, Mum.” I said, still laughing.

“Good. Now that you know, when you feel like giving this all up, remember it can only be over when that lone bead turns up,” and she shuffled away.

I remember it like it was yesterday. My sweet wise Mum. I close my eyes and lean on the bed, thinking how impossible it is for me to give up now.

Steve should still be at work.

I shuffle over to the computer and begin typing an email. I pour my heart out in a few words.

Dear Steve,

I’ll be waiting today so we can have a heart to heart. This is really hard but I’m willing to make it work. I’ve decided giving up on us is not an option, at least not for me.

I love you,



I click send and sigh, hoping he at least catches it on his blackberry.

Back on the bed, I fall asleep almost immediately.

A few hours later, I wake to see him at the foot of the bed, head in hands, weeping. I move to his side, and start rubbing his back slowly. I know he likes that. He looks at me with tears in his eyes, his nose running. His gaze reaches right into my soul and I see in his eyes what I’ve always known. He loves me.

We sit in the dark for hours, in each other’s arms. Today could have been the end but we’ll start all over.

I fall asleep again, right where I should be, unaware of the ten paged document from the divorce courts, the forms completely filled, lying on the bedroom floor….

……in shreds.

51 thoughts on “Love still lives here…” by RemiRoy (@RemiRoy)

  1. Good one remi. You kept the surprise till the very last word. Good work. Isn’t divorce better for them? Or is it not really as bad as you painted. Hope this is not the same people in ‘Love in a Mortar’ oh. Next one now, tens years on, you’ll write how they’ve finally divorced. Don’t do that oh. Good one remi. Really enjoyed it. By the way, hope he or she is gradually having a changed of heart again?

    1. Lol@Jay. No I wont divorce them, I promise.
      I’m a sucker for love, especially the kind that never gives up.
      Thanks, for the kind words.

  2. OMG!this so good.the suspense is good too..i could never have guessed the words ‘divorce’ n ‘court’ would show up in the end! Love this piece xILikex

    1. Thanks Clinton, glad you think it’s good.

  3. This is simply awesome Remi. Nice piece

  4. Remi, you can write!

    That is all the words in my mouth.

    Well done!!!

    1. Opeyemi, thanks a lot.
      I’m glad you think so.

  5. nice one Remi
    love the unexpected twist.

    1. Thanks Paul! Glad it snuck up on you. :)

  6. What a beautiful story. A second chance for two people who truly deserve it.
    Welldone, Remi.

    1. I agree, they truly deserve it, after all everyone deserves a second chance.
      Thanks dear.

  7. Sometimes I dey wonder what ur mother ate to have you,I love this story,Roy.I love you too.

    1. Plantain dear, Fried plantain! Lol.
      Thanks a lot dearie, I love you toooooo!
      Muah! :-*

      1. then my mum has to explain where oil was that she didnt fry the plantain at home.
        From today,will eat fried plantain till I cease child bearing.
        Love you Bbz

  8. (singing D kendra’s song)
    go remi
    go remi
    go remi

    your story really got me
    u re good

    1. Lol, can i sing along? :)
      Thanks dear, glad it did.

  9. I absolutely agree with Gretel…lots of love from me too…:)
    This was wonderful, ill definitely keep this for the days ahead, when i may feel like Lara ..again RemiRoy…very well done!!

  10. I absolutely agree with Gretel…lots of love from me too…:)
    This was wonderful,written beautifully, ill definitely keep this for the days ahead, when i may feel like Lara ..very well done RemiRoy!!

    1. I’ll remember it too, for those days when you never know…
      Thanks Sparky, bless your heart, love ya right back! :)

  11. Love never ends…A union is ups and down but the lessons makes all stronger…Nice write…Me dig this much…U’ve got the twists in there…good end too….Love, love, love…life!

    1. Yes T1 never ends.
      I only wish it could be so in every marriage, imagine how wonderful the world will be.
      Thanks for reading and commenting.

  12. Well, I believe it can be….Just difference in us makes us all go trying things out believing we know it all…but I know with compromise, love, understanding, trust, truth, chatting together, caring and a feeling of oneness, things always get better as not everything in relationship is meant to bugs us…some are just to laugh at, learn from and love the more! My pleasure always! Enjoy your day!

  13. True that! Thanks treasured1, have a great day too.

  14. Wow! Remi.
    Wow Again! That’s all I can say for now.

    1. lol@pinkette!
      Thanks dear.That says a lot!

  15. Well done Remi. Just keep writing!

    1. Thanks Berry. I sure will!

  16. Very nice piece Remi. Most times, our “weak” actions of persistence is all it takes to to hold on and make it work in the end.

    Very nice.

    1. True that Kay!
      Thanks for reading. God bless.

  17. Reading this a second time doesn’t make it any less beautiful! And on being a sucker for love that never gives up, I assure you, you’re not the only one there! :D

    1. Tee! I am duly assured. aren’t you my brother? from another mother? i don;t doubt it. :)

  18. Great work Remi, this piece was almost flawless. You are good!

    1. Thanks Scopeman! Thanks.

  19. I didn’t quite get this, RemiRoy. Usually, where one party wants to give the relationship one last shot, it’s because there’s something at stake – but I didn’t quite see how the bead illustration should make Lara want to give their marriage one last shot. Maybe I’m missing some context somewhere…

    And I wasn’t sure what the ‘divorce paper’ ending meant. Was it Steve or Lara who had been on the verge of filing them?

    1. Tola, married people like us understand these things better. The bead is quite symbolic in her marriage. In fact, for me, it is the most symbolic thing in her marriage. Maybe she loves the mum so much. She doesn’t need any other tangible reason to decide to give her marriage a chance when she got the bead. She just needs to know that it’s marriage and that her mum, ‘wherever’ she is, is totally rooting for them. The divorce papers are for the man of the house who’s probably crying because the mama never gave him no bead or a coat of many colours. Remi, if I’m wrong, take style talk am oh.

  20. Touching story, i liked the way it read, the flow didnt miss a bit. good one Remi.

    1. Thanks Elly. Thanks a lot.

  21. @Jaywriter Lol :) and Thanks.
    @TolaO. Well, personally I wouldn’t need any thing else to be at stake to want to save my marriage, the marriage itself is the main thing. Like Jay said, the bead illustration is very symbolic. It kinda served as a reminder of the vows they made when all was rosy and sweet. It’s understandable. We forget. Life happens, with some crap thrown in for good measure, but if what we had was genuine, all we need is a gentle (or not so gentle) nudge.

    Wise people like her mother know these things, that was why she set up the bead thing in the first place. I doubt that that lone bead will turn up and even if it does, how would you know?

    And yes, the divorce papers were Steve’s fault and he wasn’t on the verge of filling them. He was ready to hand them in. Lets just say, his reaction to her little mail had so much more behind it. That could be a story for another day, couldn’t it? :)


    1. Thanks for the explanation, @RemiRoy. I think for a lot of people, marriage vows are something you say on the day of the wedding, and it’s difficult to keep them or even remember them when things are tough. Obviously, Lara is cut from a different cloth.

      1. Thanks TolaO.
        And yes, she is. :)

  22. Yay! No divorce. A heartwarming story with a great ending. I like.

    1. Yes! No divorce! Lol dear.

  23. Gbenga (@favouredgbenga)

    One word – Brilliant!

    1. Thanks Gbenga!

  24. Nice 1 Remi … Divorce should not just come up in marriages at all … ‘coz if it were, then our mums would have had several husbands that would have left us miserable. Reconciliation over and over again is all it takes. Loving over and over again is the magic. Forgiving and accepting faults … is the answer. May the Good Lord teach us more memorable ways to work it over.

    & did I say NICE ONE … Sorry I meant BRAVO!!!

    1. I totally agree with you Bunmi.
      and thanks for the comment.

  25. (**smile**)
    Nice one there remi,wasnt expecting the divorce stuffs at the end,thank God she took the step..
    methink you good!

    1. Thanks Posh! Glad you think so :)

  26. Excellent story…when i saw divorce, i screamed nooooooooooooo but then i saw the end and was relieved.

    Thumbs up!!

  27. Interestingly Captivating!

    YES! Say ‘NO’ to divorce

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