I believe.

I believe.

3:45pm. Saturday the 30th, September, 2010.

As a child, I was led to believe that the sky is always blue, no matter what; that one naira would always buy me sweets; that my dad was from a distant planet far from earth and that everyone is a Nigerian and it is the best country in the world.  I was a believer; Naïve, but a believer nonetheless.

In my childhood, I learnt a lot of things about Nigeria. Nigeria got her independence from the British Colonialists on the 1st of October, 1960, became a republic in 1963 and Dr Nnamdi Azikiwe was the first indigenous president of Nigeria. The country defended its territory against internal forces in the civil war of 1967. I also learnt the national anthem and pledge which I recited with abandon in those days.  Everything seemed so simple. 

Now, as a final year student in university, it is all so complicated. I have seen gray skies. I have not uttered one word of the national anthem or pledge in years. I have reached the conclusion that it is easier to learn history than to live it. I often say a prayer of thanks to all those Nigerians, many years ago, that lived through these periods in history and never gave up.  I pray now that we all will be appreciated for keeping faith sometime in the future.

I have seen immeasurable beauty over the years, a beauty that gives me the confidence to dream of a better Nigeria, a beauty that gives me hope that there is indeed a future, a beauty that confirms that darkness always precedes light and better days are yet to come.

I am now writing into this journal, after a stimulating history class fixed today to make up for lost time.  Something the lecturer said spurred me to make this entry. He said: “look at the Balkan countries, look at the failed states of Africa and decide for yourself if Nigeria is worth fighting for”. I hope we can make up for lost time and put up a good fight.

I do not consider myself a child anymore, but I do wish Nigerians would think as children again and sing the national anthem with abandon. Some things have changed since I was a child. I would say, still, the Nigerian sky remains blue, no matter what. I am sorry to say that one naira cannot buy me sweets anymore, but I insist that my father is not of this earth, even as I now think he is from a few planets closer than I thought. I dare say there are many nationalities out there (and countries too), but I still think Nigeria is the best country in the world. I am (still) a believer.

6:08am. Monday, October 1, 2010.

Happy independence, Nigeria.  Today, I will sing the national anthem, with abandon.

P.S:  yesterday, I convinced my friends and course mates to sing the national anthem 50 times today. They said I am not of this earth, but agreed to it.

12 thoughts on “I believe.” by Fabian (@fabage)

  1. I liked this. I am a pessimist at heart, try as I may to fight my tendencies. Yet, this was food for thought. Well done. No trade by barter necessary, I am voting for this. ;)




  3. Nice one! I like.

  4. Arise O Compatriots . . . .
    Cannot remember when last i sang it. Thanks for reminding me.
    As a never die optimist, i have never failed to believe in a better Nigeria, even during those dark days when my heart breaks.
    Long live the Federal Republic of Nigeria!
    Very nice.

  5. Good one, written with sensitivity. You make me so ashamed for thinking so many bad thoughts about my country – and saying them out loud as I have done on occasion!

  6. I like this…. The date and day weren’t consistent, though. If 30th September was a Saturday then, 1st of October should be a Sunday. Aside that, It’s a beautiful piece.

  7. @grayshores; noticed same but my guess is he’s working with the holiday.

    @Fabian, I read the first paragraph and I was sold. This is really beautiful.
    Let’s obey Nigeria’s call; she needs us as much as we need her.
    Well done sir!

  8. @Abby and Grayshores, I was hoping nobody would notice (wishful thinking. I’ll be completely honest, I was unclear of the dates at the time of writing, so I consulted my calender. I’ld like to blame it on the calender, but I later discovered I had adopted dates in October! Thanks for your comments, they are well appreciated.

    @Maya kudos, if what you say is true, then that is a small victory in itself. Thank you… and God bless Nigeria!

  9. 2cute4u (@2cute4u)

    I’m too impressed to say anything else..

    1. Seyi (@supremo)

      That makes you a fellow believer.

  10. Ditto 2cute. The story’s good. The dreams? We’ll surely get there.

  11. Daireen (@daireenonline)

    So you’re a Patriotic Nigerian ba? For your mind only :d

    We need to rediscover our lover for motherland, and make her proud by watching out for each other. Inspiring write. Thanks for sharing.

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