Today I was simply my ”best”.woke up by 4.00am to the shock of everyone(that’s usually when the real sleep start).I led in morning prayers,ran the bath for my little boys and made breakfast,yes I made breakfast.Fixed my self and went to school.Today I didn’t pretend not to see anyone,I said hi to everyone and I told all those I met how wonderful they looked.I didn’t fake a angry phone call while passing by the anatomy library and I told the librarian I liked his funky haircut.
I accompanied Ruth to get her clearance card and even bought a bottle of La Casera for her.I didn’t carry a bottle of coke along the path and when they asked for a donation of N500 from everyone in class,I didn’t embarass anyone by giving N2000.I didn’t snap the cadavers today or even spit at them.
I wore a skirt for Dr Jimmy’s class though he still complained it was too short and tight.I didn’t even make a call during neuroendocrinology class and I didn’t tell prof Rao his accent was bad,I even answered a question and laughed to his indian jokes,I talked to all my class boys and didn’t roll my eyes in disgust at their shallow mentality,I even took a picture and let them peck me,I almost collapsed.
I didn’t take sharwama or pop corn to school,hey,I even surprised myself there and worst I joined shadow and Mesdez to go eat at their low rated school canteen(holy Mary).I didn’t tell our lab attendants they stink of formalin and I gave them N500 each,I answered everyone that said hello with a smile instead of saying ”uhum” and seriously tending to my lappy,I let my class mates play songs from my E series for as long as they wanted.
I came home late ‘coz I attended our departmental meeting and I told the driver to drop my colleagues at their homes.
I threw up when I got home ‘coz this whole thing didn’t work for me,even myself disgusted me,I hope to snap out of this deadly syndrome by tomorrow.Even my BF hates it.
Good night duh