Letter to Dee

Letter to Dee

Dear Dee,

Why did you make me fall in love with you and then leave me? How was it possible that you could fall so easily out of love with me? I always thought your promise was for life and I did not think that I would someday hear you say it was over. Till this very moment as you read this, I still don’t get it. One of my greatest fears at the beginning, was that I would discover that I wasn’t really in love with you and I would leave and hurt you but I guess the table turned, right?………….

The last weekend I spent at your house was kinda sad for me especially on Sunday night because that night, I realized a lot of things. A phone rings and I realize it is a call from ‘Nubian Queen’ for you and I thought to myself ‘that used to be me, now it’s no longer and how many other Nubian Queens were there before me?’ Does this mean I was just a statistic?’ And then I think of the times we spent together and it all could not have been a lie and somehow I felt there really must have been love. But you see, a lot of other things that weekend just seemed to happen to contradict this belief I was trying so hard to hold on to. Things like lies that should not have been told.

Lie 1 – why would you tell me you were not dating anyone when you had another ‘Nubian Queen’? I mean if you had told me you had started seeing someone else when I asked, did you think I would commit suicide or what? I still don’t get why you would lie about that and then to make out with me knowing she was out there somewhere, loving you, just as I loved you and probably thinking I did not know about her. How stupid or naïve did you think me to be? It really sucked.

Lie 2 – now this one hurt me pretty bad because it was something I just did not expect you to do. In my time of need, knowing how important it was to me and knowing how proud I am about asking for things from people, humbling myself to do just that, you flat out lied and refused to help me. Not once while I was in your house did you ask how I was fairing and if I had sorted out my problem, not once. Then I think to myself, this guy claimed he loved me, claimed he would walk to the end of the earth for me. If he really cared about me, would he really, really do this?

That night I was torn, I cried and I remembered. Remembered how you said we would have problems, serious issues and promised you would always be there and that it would be the love we had for each other that would pull us through. Remembered when you used to say I gave you your life back and how we were destined for each other.

This is not some sort of plea, this is just for you to remember the words and promises you made to me and the promises you are making now. It is just so easy for us to say things but harder to do them. Words are not to be taken lightly; I know I don’t take my words lightly. When I said I loved you, I really meant it and for the first time in my 24 years, I was in love and I loved it and I thought everything that happened then was worth that love. I have no regrets only experiences just like Victoria Holt said – Never regret. If it is good, it is wonderful but if it is bad, it is an experience

I know I have learnt from this experience

1. To take my own advice ‘Don’t have much expectations from people, that way, you don’t end up being disappointed’.

2. To pay attention to those tiny details we tend to ignore in the ‘throes of passion’ that keeps us from making mistakes.

3. To fall or rather to walk in love smarter and wiser in my next relationship.

Oh well just know that I still care for you and always will.

Love,

Bee



20 thoughts on “Letter to Dee” by Diva Divine (@divadivine)

  1. This read sooooo real!! Love the letter concept too. well done Diva!

  2. Methinks she is well rid of the guy.
    I like this, Diva. Well done.

  3. Wow this was so beautifully done,really like it,and seriously I pray Bee moves on.
    Well done.

  4. Uhm…story letter or letter story. I love it and can feel her pain especially since she admits to caring for the guy. i think i would take note of experience no 2 so i dont also fall victim.

  5. Meena-Adekoya (@Olajumoke-Adekoya)

    love the letter concept, made the story very real, its the end that trips me, the fact that even after he had hurt her so much he still admits to caring for him…deep sturves

  6. @meena-adekoya – Who they don love they don love am. That a relationship goes bad doesn’t mean you stop loving or caring about your ex. It’s just that maybe you guys can’t be together again in that same capacity for some reason. @diva divine – maybe me missed it, but why did the guys leave her. You seem out to have said it all. You never really portrayed the guy as a player or a bad person. So stop bashing the guy, girls. The letter writer never told us what she’d done wrong. Great stuff though. Really felt the letter. Feel like taking the girl out on a date for a week and telling her she’s gonna find someone good enough for her, not me oh. That’s how much me loved the letter… story… story-letter… letter-story… Keep it up. Like, Jaywriter

  7. Nice job diva divine. The letter concept is cool too. I’m guessing he just grew apart from her, right? Well, life happens. Its just one of those things. She still loves him but she’s got the right attitude; moving right on. Might be hard but it is do-able. There were some suspect lines in there though, work those out and tis done. Good job.

  8. awww..tat relationship has gone too far to be saved and its cool u realised it.some people are blinded by love and refuse to see such things even when its right in front of them.l like the third advice most.reminds me of loving with the head and not the heart.

  9. Love gone sour. It shows that talk is cheap. People can promise to die for another and yet when challenges arise, we see the truth of the matter.

    sad

  10. aaaaaaawww.thanks so much guys..yea its a story-letter,letter-story..lol.
    @ Jaywriter – the letter just encapsulates the different kinds of guys and their reasons for ending a relationship. He could be a player thats just tired and looking for the next hot thing, or a guy frustrated with issues with his life and cant handle the responsibilities of a relationship, or just a guy thats just not feeling the relationship anymore.
    the main crux of the letter is how the lady feels afterwards and her ability to admit the way she really feels about the breakup..

    I really appreciate all your comments..for a newbie writer, i’m honored indeed.

  11. @diva divine.u sure dont write like a newbie.

  12. @Afro nuts.u are right about the talk is cheap part but it applies to every facet of life and trust me,almosteveryone is in one way or the other guilty.

  13. thanks Paul :)

  14. Yu sure wrote this well, I feel you. I like the letter concept too.

  15. thanks alot Myne…I appreciate

  16. Hmmm, wise girl! I love this really. Well done Diva!

    A quick one though, I guess you meant ‘Faring’ not ‘Fairing’. but all in all, good job!

  17. thank Remi for the correction. Noted :-)

    1. Welcome dearie.

  18. @diva-divine, me love this from a-z. well done..and more petrol to the engine of your pen. i love the epistolary method you used… ingenuous.

    1. epistolary??? wow…lol…the words i learn from this blog…as an engineer, its difficult to keep up with all the ngbongbo grammar you guys blow on NS but i go try keep up….
      Thanks for viewing and appreciating this piece…

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