The Love that never came
The love that came and left
And to the love on the way:
In the starry less night, I walked in darkness
Looking for light, I fell and rose.
What happened to me, what is wrong or right with me?
My O my, I am in love, in love with a girl, yet I am a boy.
Trying to be nice,I got closer to her,
Like a ghost’s movement, my passion wasn’t felt,
I was unnoticed- I was chasing a shadow.
In a bid to express myself, I met a friend
Who gave me an intro of expression
-which I later developed.
In a bid to know her, I learnt of a truth
For at last I said the truth
And she told me the truth:
‘Seye, I am engaged!’
What a shock,
From a love that never came
Nor was ever mine.
Like a soothing balm, I calmed
From the pain, now rendered vain
By a touch, a torch of love
That lit thru the grip of shame-facedness
A shame of unreturned love-a lovelorn.
From afar she came, and with a touch
A touch of Midas, I turned gold.
Basking in this gold nature, I learnt of some things
That acted like a burst of the bile in a prepared meat,
I turned sour, but not without an explanation.
(Nothing sweets forever!)
Then came a big question or two:
Am I forcing myself on you,
Like trying to hold on to you and not let go?
What a question with a lot of complicated answers.
I know your mind was poisoned by your so-called friends,
Who you think are experts,
Yet, they never succeeded in their relationships.
-I relaxed, she left.
And in the least none is forcing who.
… In the test of seriousness, I think I failed,
For I fear for my heart, my love,
I’m single, and I fear disappointing commitments.
Don’t fall in love with a dreamer, a lyric yet to be known.
Who is a dreamer that we shouldn’t love?
Maybe this is the dream of a dreamer that made him guilty
-and sentenced to the jail of not being loved or to be loved:
For a perfect girl, dark and averagely tall, Intelligent and a good sense of humour;
For a girl whom, when I get upset, won’t flare, and when she’s in a fit, she will tell;
For a girl, who knows how to express herself, and if she can’t she is ready to learn;
For a girl, who knows not how to keep malice, but can learn from her past;
For a girl, who will be praying when I’m not there, and also meet her praying;
For a girl, dedicated to God, and be ready to sacrifice all for HIM;
For a girl, who can say ‘sorry’ even when she is right and the other party wrong;
For a girl, who can listen to complaints and cope with others;
For a girl, who can identify my weaknesses and raise me strong when I fall
(I will tell her the weaknesses I know)
For a girl, whose longing (to see) is enough motivation
For a girl, when I see, I forget about the rest- the Tempters;
For a girl, who will make me forget the labours of work after a tiring day:
For being with her , each time is an experience.
For a girl, who can give me the confidence to face those daunting tasks,
And however copes with my failures, …and my success.
For a girl, who will not only look at the left side of me,
But seeing my right side appreciates me the more.
For a girl, who knows that my right side is scarred,
Yet embraces it, not the one that only want to see the left side.
For a girl, who can darn whatever they (others) say,
But trusting me thru the days.
For a girl, who can leave them all,
And sacrifice it all and knows that my love for her is real and true.
For a girl, who I can always write about, once in a while or week or more: to say the least.
For a girl, who is ready to be the mother of my children or child, as the case may be.
For a girl, who has the option of leaving me, yet her faith holds on and hoping for a better tomorrow,
…and when tomorrow comes, and it is still the same, she never leaves me, ‘cos she knows it’s going to be well.
For a girl, who will stand by me through our rocking years, even when the rocks seem to be daunting,
….for she believes, we are both Zerubbabel, the mount got to become a plain.
For a girl, who, when I lose faith, she is there to strengthen my faithlessness with her faith and faithfulness,
For she knows, I will do the same for her.
…To the Love on the way
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