This piece is made up of 2 write ups and are not connected to each other but they circle around the same theme.
I searched for you, but it was like the earth swallowed you.
By the flowing waters of the sea, I stood waiting
To feel your presence beside me but my efforts were fruitless.
With my feet buried in the wet sand, I sank in tears all night long.
You became like thin air I could not find, my only companion was my pain.
Memories do last longer than pictures; they kept me afloat.
Thoughts of you kept me warm at night…
Time did come to a stand still because nothing changed in my world,
Days grew into months, months to years, as I nurtured my pain,
I cursed the day my heart accepted you in,
Do not be sorry because you chose to be, rather look and be proud of me.
I have become a woman you never knew existed, an army of you cannot break me.
I’m like a toddler on his first steps,
I try to stand but each time, I fall face down,
I struggle each time to stand right and take a bold step forward,
But my feet fail me each time.
I can’t stop now I have to stand and walk,
So I keep trying, it won’t be easy but I know,
One day I would surely stand right and walk,
I would be ready.