‘Where were you last night?’ he scowled. His voice trailed me down to the kitchen. ‘At the hospital’ I replied looking away from the pitiful sight of him that called himself my husband.
‘What do you mean?’ His vicious eyes found mine from the purple rays of dawn filtering into the kitchen that early morning. A second look at him confirmed my fears. Adamou had come home drunk yesterday and had slept on the couch again. Since he lost his job at N.N.P.C, he had turned a psychopath. He slouched across to where I was, his eyes bloodshot.
‘Where have you been?’ He asked again. ‘Adamou, where should a nurse be coming from at this hour? I looked him in the eyes angry. Night shift had been so hectic and I was tired. I did not see him coming till he dealt me a hot swipe and thunder kissed lightning.
I dropped to my knees in reflex and grabbed his feet. I brought him down in a sec drawing the anger from the pit of my stomach. I descended on him with all the barrage of vengeance. From my shoes to my nails, my teeth had a swell feast on his flesh. I did not leave him till he bled, groaning in pains on the floor.
Somehow posterity had been fair enough to pay Adamou, even in my life time. Thanks to the club of young women I joined recently who called themselves ‘Esan’ a Yoruba word for vengeance. They had not only helped me regain self confidence, they had also taught me basic defence techniques to defend myself in case a fight erupted.
Looking at Adamou on the floor and all I could do was spite him, even the more for all he had done to me. For all the times he had had me locked up in the room with no food or water. For all the nights, he raped me, poured water on me before he had me beaten up. The horrendous torture clutched my throat and almost suffocated me. I kicked him hard in the groin and watched him wince in pain with joy. Enough of your cry! I screamed. ‘You taught me ruthlessness’. My lips parted slightly, joy bursting my seams.
‘Joy! Joy!!’ His voice rang. I jolted out of my reverie on the floor to the seemingly unanswerable question, ‘where were you last night?’