I saw him today. He is always so busy and he is working so hard, he barely said Hi. It’s been several years now that I fell hard for him, but I still remember vividly the day I looked at him and in a flash realized how much I cared about him .It was as if I finally had the answers to all my questions. He was not available though, life is so ironic. I have tried everything to chase him from my mind. A part of me wants to move on and run away from him. A part of me is so attached to him that I am paralyzed and I don’t even know why. He has never said anything letting me know if he had any feelings for me but when I am next to him, I feel like a different person. There is a weight being lifted, a curtain being pulled away. I feel like I have always known him, like he is the only person I can speak to and be myself with. There is no pretense, only the two of us in the universe.
Good morning everybody! How are all my princesses today? Who will be the lucky girl this week who will be going out with me on Friday night? You know I will treat you right and you will have your dream date like no one else could give you. I am a true gentleman and I know how to take care of a lady. Be fast though, a lot of girls want to spend some quality time with me. Are you ready for the time of your life? Inbox me!
I have to make believe this lightness in my life at work and around my friends but there is this heaviness in my heart, this pain tormenting me every day. It is like walking in sand or in snow and not seeing the end of it. I am suffocating, I can’t do this anymore. I love him so much but I can’t tell him. Instead, I have to smile and keep going. I just want to scream and tell everyone what I am going through but I can’t. Nobody would understand. I cry myself to sleep every night. There is such a discrepancy between the person everyone sees and the way I am inside. How will I go on?
All right girls. A lot of you inboxed me so who will I pick for Friday? Will it be the sexy Nkem or the adorable Adefolake? Choosing is so hard and you know I love you all. My head hurts already with pain knowing I can’t take all of you to this memorable date. Don’t worry though, there will be other Friday nights. Kisses.
I haven’t been able to write for several days. The only thing I can think of is him. The love I have for him and the fact that I can never tell him are like two forces pulling me apart. I can’t go on. My life is a lie. I can’t smile anymore and I can’t unlove him. I want it all to stop. I have nothing to look forward to. I just want to go to sleep and not come back. At least I will go, dreaming about him. I have to go to the protest tomorrow morning because I promised Sylvia. I will go back home after that and I will stop this nonsense once and for all. I know no one will miss me.
I am not one to kiss and tell but you know there is one girl in Naija who woke up really happy yesterday. In any case don’t forget to all show up tomorrow. Pass the word. Everybody has to be there.
I met someone today.
I met someone today.