THE FRIEND I NEVER HAD

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Jul 072012

There are things which we wish for that never were. There are others which are never meant to be. While there are still others which we don’t wish for but we get. Live gives each man his lot and hopes he makes the best use of it. It is only fair to wish and hope for the best. Life is a puzzle each living human plays. The end only comes with mans transition to the higher realm.

We do not make our earthly journey alone but make it along with others. They are constantly around, moving in and out. People will always come and go in our lives. We meet new people almost each day of our passing life. Some end up being friends while others turn out to be foes. Only with time do we realise on which side of the line they stand.

I have had my own share of both. They come in different sizes, languages and colours. I have even lost count of some but I still keep a list of my true friends. I can call them ‘true’ friends because they have been tested and they came out on top. They did for me what a friend does for his friend in need. I owe them a lot, though I have paid back some measure already. They are friends to have.

So, I hope they won’t be hurt if they are reading this. I have a burden which the heading of this write-up mirrors. I needed to share my burden with some one else. It is said that a problem shared is already half solved. I hope it is the cure for this my condition.

My condition is persistent and reoccurring. It constantly tugs at my senses. It plays all kind of games with my heart leaving me drained and longing for more. My condition is a wish. A wish I know can’t be fulfilled but I still hope and pray. I just have to keep the hope alive even if it only weighs me down. I must have you! Yes, you this elusive friend.

I have courted you right from birth but you still elude me. Even as a toddler, I tried to play with you. Sometimes you allowed me to, other times you left me on my own to hurt. Even with the hurt, my love for you has never waned. I grew up steadily, desiring you like a drunk desires a bottle. With this constant show of affection, you have never looked my way twice. I have matured into a man and still have hopes of me and you. I fill up my fantasies with images of you solidly behind me as I live my life. If only you were mine, these wishes will all come true.

People have told me to give up on the chase but I just can’t listen. Some laugh at me and call me names. They say that this elusive friend have eluded others before me. This then made me to wonder just how old this elusive friend could be. I am yet to get an answer to that. May be I’m really pathetic wishing for that which will never be. I know I have tried so hard but I guess it is time to give up. Sometimes, we have to take a moment off to see how futile some wishes are. I will miss craving for you my elusive friend but I think this is for the best. So I will live on knowing that you, PERFECTION, were the friend I never had.

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I am a Nigerian from the eastern region. I grew up in the north central region of this great country. My real name is Nwafornso Tochukwu. I love to write alot.

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