It hurts and covering it up makes me short of breathe
so connected…so fast and its to late too regret and its considered one of those things to hard too forget
but i must
because sunny days won’t appear until i dispose the fear of not having “it”
YOUR name is “it” for now because saying YOUR name brings..PAIN
four AM and its only..thoughts of…him
i said it!!!! now laugh
talk about how pathetic and weak i am
how i should not have given in
how our relationship never really made much sense
but…it did exist
or did it?
hypnotized and made to feel like this mirage of an “us” was real …….
i ran on the possibility that one day he would be with me physically…and
AGAIN ….I WENT IN BLINDLY….
AND IT HURTS’
because you advised me to get a life as if i had none before….
while loving you?
If loving you meant i was lifeless then i was dead
and right now i need to be revived because only tonight did i manage to gasp enough air
breathing slow enough not to fracture my rib cage or whatever protects my heart from your daggers coated in toxic waste
You mutate my ability to love
You were my sanity
and to say I’m crazy is an understatement because crazy people are to caught up in their own minds to read between the lines…
but i did
so call me blind
Blind folded and lead by the possibility or the belief that we were soul mates
When we first met we called it fate and now I’m left wondering if love gone wrong will forever bepart of my destiny?
2 B continued…..